I seem to have falling into what I can only call a hobby black hole, so what is a hobby black hole ? Well its like a normal black hole only instead of pulling in light it pulls joy, at least that how I see it & is what I think is the best way of explaining the way I am at the moment.
Hobby wise I've not done anything since before June, you might remember that at that time I was building up to what is know as gangster setting & even had the table set up for the first game & there the table has set un-looked at ever since, as I've lost interest.
Like all bloggers I'd guess, not only do I get joy from doing my own blog post but also from reading other people's blogs as well, but when I found that I was only looking in on those blogs in a going though the motions point of way & not getting the enjoyment out of them that I should I knew something was wrong, this was really hammered home when I quite reading one when half way through it.
What lead me to this point I don't want to go into here, but some of you have contacted me to enquire about my well being & that was very kind & once again my thanks for doing so, so where am I now hobby wise ?
Sadly still in the pull of the black hole, but hopefully the fact that I'm doing this post is the start of me trying to brake free, I guess I just need to find something to fire that spark & then take it slowly.
That's it for this post & as always my thanks for dropping in & if you'd care to leave a comment it would be welcome.
Great to hear from you Frank, a great description of how it feels at the moment, though not a great place to be.
ReplyDeleteTalking about it can be a great start, and if you need to talk one on one I'm here for you mate.
As to how to start the spark off, try something small, maybe start a small scenery project or a figure you've wanted to paint, schedule yourself half an hour and don't plan anymore unless it flows, then give it a day and try again, you can add to the time when you feel ready, hope this helps
Thanks Dave, that's good advice but I think the way back for me might be to just play a few games, kind of like a back to basics kind of thing as its gaming that got me into this hobby & is the part I enjoy the most.
DeleteI don't have any good ideas or words of wisdom, just wanted to say I hear you.
ReplyDeleteThanks Fitz, just known people are out there & willing to listen is a big help.
DeleteMate, I am right there with you - and why I have been unable to update my blog. Zero motivation and I feel like I'm walking through mud everyday. You're in better shape than me though, it's been almost 8 months for me posting anything consistently, I wish I could have snapped out of it after a couple months.
ReplyDeleteAll the best Frank and as you said, hopefully this is the first step to getting back to a hobby normalcy again.
Thanks Ivor,as the saying goes there's always somebody worst off, but at least you have Liverpool winning things to help, maybe like I think I need to do myself to come out of this is we both just need to roll some dice & have fun.
DeleteFrank, I hope everything comes good again for you.Maybe have a look around for a new project? Maybe something you put away years ago might present some interest now? Anyway, as the others said, we're here for you.
ReplyDeleteThanks Martin,I think to many projects might be half the problem, as like our good friend John painting & rules is not my thing, I think its a case of needing to roll some dice have fun & forget about the rest for a while.
DeleteHi there!
ReplyDeleteI'm in a similar position when it comes to blogging and blogs. The spark is gone. For now only, hopefully.
No games at the club, no meeting pals. It is a difficult time.
But I still paint figures and terrain. I guess it helps keeping me sane.
Hope to see you outside the hole soon.
Thanks Joakim, while I'm a solo gamer for the most part I was once a week heading over to a friends house for some RPG action, so I felt I was getting my gaming fix that way while I was doing terrain work & painting models, then the world went mad but I think for me the way out might be to just play some games.
DeleteHey Frank, nice to 'hear' from you, even in these circumstances.
ReplyDeleteI know the feeling, I've lost all motivation to do do most anything with a "what's the point attitude.
My normal way out of these situations (and there's been a few over the lasr ten years or so) has been diifcult, but doing anything hobbywise can be a lift. I read old rules, others' blogs and jot down ideas for new rules, terrain, figures I'd like and so on. I search the interweb for 'interesting' bits as they occur in my haphazard brain. I used to email a friend regularly on rules about common interests and we'd bounce ideas off one another.
As the advert goes, every little helps.
My best suggestion would be is to try and maintain your blog on a regular basis, just write about anything, reflections, hopes etc.
Of course if you want a sounding board, myself and other bloggers, I'm sure would be all too willing to listen.
Thanks Joe,reading rules is not really my thing as I find the only way I can understand rules or remember them is to game while learning them, read others blogs such as your own has help me in the past when the mojo has dipped but this time round it seems to be having a negative effect.
DeleteKeeping the blog going while hard at this point in time might be a big help as I've found that the feed back form you guys even on such a gloomy post has giving me a bit of a lift.
If I understand the Big Bang theory even a little bit, first there was a black hole, or at least - nothing. Then there was a Big Bang and everything. Just wait for the bang:)
ReplyDeleteI went through a Black Hole for years, doing nothing in a wargaming line and I didn't miss it at all. Then slowly it came back, the strange urge to move little lead men over a green cloth and shout bang, bang - you're dead. Mind you I had to shout quietly because the current Mrs V had no idea that I played with lead men and she thought it very strange and still does.
It will come back, some day, who knows when but it's not something to beat yourself up about, there's more to life than this. I've finally started to play a few games, simple ones and I'm enjoying them so maybe that's a way forward.
It is good to hear from you and take care.
Cheers
John
Thanks John, well tbh I'm just waiting for a spark but I guess a big bang would work just as well, but as for me shouting bang bang your dead, well I think Mrs O'D thinks I mad enough as it is & if I start that there will surely be men in white coats at the door :)
DeleteYep I think the way forward for me is gaming & for the time been to just keep it simple stupid as they say.